To Truth and Fate
It occured to me that you do not always always get what you want, you can get a lot of things and try as hard as you can, but some things you simply cannot change. You accept. You cannot change the past, you cannot change other people. You accept events as they occured and people as they are. You learn. You can however, create a better future.
You can always imagine a happy ending, you cannot creat a better present without envisiong the happy ending. What is more though, is that maybe it is time to let go and give yourself that happy endings may not be what you had in mind, what u so dearly wished for. As we move forward, we realize that the truth is all so different from what we thought and even what we say now, may not be it.
Amal...do not carry the world's weight on your shoulders, mistakes are mistakes but they are not the end. Forgiveness is key, but forgive urself first and foremost and you will know that good thins come around. They do not come to an end. You are too young to resort to desperation, hang in there and smile. Believe but don't live in denial. Hope, but hope for what you really really want in your hearts of heart..it is not about what people want, it is about what you really want.
I want love, i found it in him and now it is not there,,,i wonder if it comes again. And if it does, does it come as true and beautiful? Do we get second chances? Would it be stronger next time? I wondered..wondered way too long.
But most of all, i am making a vow to be honest to myself this time and not myself in that manner ever again. I am fighter, i got weak. I got here...i will stay close.
The sky was blue today, for a change, it is getting darker now and as it does, my mood goes with it. Frightened by the night, i wished i could sleep it thought to the day i antipate everyday and know i would rather forever avoid. It is a minor thing ti face, we've been through worse and we are strong.
People went through real miseries, i should be abel to handle this. I am. I am just accepting and more than that realizing that I need more than that. Real appreciation of myself and that will not come without an inward look at myself..at who i truely am and bring it out.
in the end, you cannot lie to fate. It knows more than you do.
You can always imagine a happy ending, you cannot creat a better present without envisiong the happy ending. What is more though, is that maybe it is time to let go and give yourself that happy endings may not be what you had in mind, what u so dearly wished for. As we move forward, we realize that the truth is all so different from what we thought and even what we say now, may not be it.
Amal...do not carry the world's weight on your shoulders, mistakes are mistakes but they are not the end. Forgiveness is key, but forgive urself first and foremost and you will know that good thins come around. They do not come to an end. You are too young to resort to desperation, hang in there and smile. Believe but don't live in denial. Hope, but hope for what you really really want in your hearts of heart..it is not about what people want, it is about what you really want.
I want love, i found it in him and now it is not there,,,i wonder if it comes again. And if it does, does it come as true and beautiful? Do we get second chances? Would it be stronger next time? I wondered..wondered way too long.
But most of all, i am making a vow to be honest to myself this time and not myself in that manner ever again. I am fighter, i got weak. I got here...i will stay close.
The sky was blue today, for a change, it is getting darker now and as it does, my mood goes with it. Frightened by the night, i wished i could sleep it thought to the day i antipate everyday and know i would rather forever avoid. It is a minor thing ti face, we've been through worse and we are strong.
People went through real miseries, i should be abel to handle this. I am. I am just accepting and more than that realizing that I need more than that. Real appreciation of myself and that will not come without an inward look at myself..at who i truely am and bring it out.
in the end, you cannot lie to fate. It knows more than you do.
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