Break it

I want to smash my head!!! Smash it so hard that every paradigm, every illusion, every thought would be broken down into little pieces as if they were all made out of glass in the first place. I would then pick out the pieces i'd like to keep (hopefully not many) and start building a new head day by day, slowly but efffecitntly.

A head that actually lives in the real world..a head that concentrates. A head that is thoughtful and think of solutions...hmm that would be quite the head. It would do all sorts of maths in seconds, it would read really really fast and not forget a thing. It would have opinions and build arguments...Man!!! that would be one head i would just die for!!!

How hard is it for me to get that? u would think i'm not asking for much, i'm not, but would someone just please smash my head??? Please, just smash it real hard!