Now that everything is left unsaid
I was sorry i was so mean..my world surfaced beneath her voice and in less words, my existance crumbeled for an undefended purpose. It scared me that years could be lived numbered by anothers' days..it made me indebt, i knew i wont repay. I stole my days away. It scared me that yes, it happens and yes it's true that lives get wasted, that others pay the cost, that we can be passed unnoticed unnless we commit to a notice. I was not commiting. I was only sorry they had to breath such air; maybe they were happy...
I did see heaven but i wished her Judgement and Heaven, i wished me peace, continuation, and an understanding of purpose.
You glanced as if you knew. How smart, how impressive it must be for shephards to challenge those who refused to follow, proving with no proof but with logical sentiment, that all laws dictate that only they knew and walked on the right road..that mine was misleading to lead. Dare me if you will, i am too tired to explain, i am too tired to argue as to why. i didn't know really. I just asked too much and forgot to look for an answer. I stuttered in reply.
And to you, written for you: In all goodness, this will be good. With little pressure, this will vapourize. In all fairness, and with no promise, we vowed to promise none, doubt it if you will. Miss it not. I looked away, i forgot to say, that on leaving, i will leave sooner than i was found. I did not smoke..i breathed in flavours, got lost in a cloud, realized, i belonged in a greener sphere. Thrilled by a spark, i lost you turning around, wondering as their eyes whirled the grounds, as their words slurred and blurred the room, why collapses and edges were not present in their views. I forgot to say what i would never say. Leave it for me, unless you know better.
Calling it a day. Leaving it a day. Starting another day.
