i haven't written here for a loong time but everyday i realize the need to put all this somewhere for me..and what better place can i have dear blog!

A lot has happened since i left my last incomplete words...To start with i went to michigen, and for seconds, my heart froze there. My eyes welled up with tears and i looked around but they wouldn't leave me and they wouldn't flow. In the heat of the moment and the humidity of the air, i searched for the sun behind the blazing rays but couldn't find it, so my tears froze in silence. It was soooooooo quite there, so calm and relaxed. The people soo laid back, the slowness was unbearable and the day NEVER ends ( seriously, it gets dark around 10 p.m)! I was afraid of getting comfortable and growing into thei lives, and it hit me..for years i'be complained from the pollution of the city having lived in the most polluted and populated of cities but i've grown to love its noise and admire its choking streets, the business, the noise, the hurd of people stampeding after their lives, the richness of Egyptian culture and history, the flavoured air, the sweat of daily aspirations, the comfort in fatalism...I loved it all and found it hard to adapt in the greenery of michigen. I so highly valued the most basic of human rights, fresh air, but my lungs would not inhale it..they longed for the city.

Many would say that it was a big mistake to go to NY first cause i constantly keep comparing..very true, it was a loong stretch but i'm here to strech horizons. America was not jus' the big wild streets of the big apple nor is it just the humblness of the midwest. IT IS BIG! So in my persuite to enjoy the hugeness of the experience, i decided to go to chicago for the weekend to feel the adrenaline rush cities inject u with. The pleasure of the decision allowed to look at michigen in a different light, not falling into it but accepting my need to find myself outside of busy streets and live the experience. So i did. It was slow but comforting.

The weekend on the other hand was WILD again, The minute i arrived, i was thrown into the streets alone again, i loved it, i was trying to figure out the whole subway thing and look around at the same time but i was sad. I wanted to live here and never have to go back to michigen.
But then i thought, if i keep that attitude, i wont enjoy anything. Comparisons are not good for you, they wear u out, so live the moment and leave it. Then i met some people on the subway and we had pretty interesting conversations. Its the diversity i loved. The first night i got to chicago, i went to this house party with alyaa who is SO cool, i jus' love her! The party was full of international trainees from all over the world and it was really fun and the people were very interesting, its odd how we're all soo different yet in some way humans all over the world are after the same thing. Its undefinable, but u see it in everyone's eyes. And it motivates u to go the extra mile, to go to these lenghts, to acheive...

The rest of the weekend was also cool, some sightseeing, shopping, w taab3an i had to listen to some jazz if i'm in chicago so alia took me to a jazz club! it was awesome, my eyes were sleepy but my spirit floating all over the place and my feet barely capable of carrying my thoughts any longer. I bought so many books at the book fair there that i'm forcing myself to read them all while i'm here coz i can't take them all back home..way too heavy! But they fill up my days in michigen...

okaaaay..more to write later, i'll try to make it sooner cause a lot has happened and now i can see how it's happening too fast for me and my blog to keep up!